How’s your heart connection with God today? How’s it been the last six months, or years?
We can all of us go through seasons of feeling disconnected and disappointed; times of struggle, and desert times that just feel dry. They can happen to us because of circumstances; they can happen because of choices we’ve made. Often it’s due to a bit of both.
When I was a kid, and as a teenager, I would often end up in tears during worship songs. Even then I knew those tears were the Spirit moving in me. I loved singing, encountering God, and being amongst friends and family who were worshipping.
Things changed in my twenties. Arrogance crept in. I became cynical and a bit hard-hearted. I analyzed things to death, and spent so much time trying to explain things that I explained a lot away. Over time this eroded my pursuit of God in worship; those precious experiences of God’s presence became more rare, and that once-vibrant heart connection became faded. I never set out for this to happen, but it did.
Well thanks be to God we’re all on a journey! Over the last two years Jesus has drawn me back in; begun healing my hardness of heart and tearing down those high walls of cynicism. He’s restored in me a heart of flesh that beats with joy in praise and worship. I feel like God has been resuscitating something that was almost dead. I’d love to tell you about that!
Wherever you’re at, know that God greatly desires your affections and to make His affections for you known. James 4:8 says “Draw near to God and he will draw near to you.” Hebrews 11:6 says ‘He rewards those who diligently seek Him.”
Even in those desert places, keep pursuing God.